8 weeks out

I finally have a marker, 8 weeks out.  Still a lot of time...but it's a countdown in my mind which I seem to work better mentally with.  I need a marker, countdown visually to set my mind up better.  These last 2.5 weeks have been hard, I have been very tired and my energy is low.  I am a VERY energetic person so to have that, any of that taken away, is not good for me.  It's un-motivating and I hate the feeling of having no energy.  I know it's my body adjusting, and I know it's because I started this "prep" mode already doing bigger amounts of cardio.  I have slimmed up my cardio here and there as I don't need to do that much right now.  It's helped a little.  I have a 10k race for tomorrow, that I was focusing on my time more than anything.  With this "lean" eating though my time has not been where it should be:-(  I am able to have a little pasta tonight (EEEKKKK) and do what I need to do for breakfast to give me the proper fuel to get me through this race.  I have realized I could never do a half marathon or another race during comp time.  I know how to train for competitions and I know how to train for running races,  I don't know how to intertwine the two, as my body can NOT handle both at the same time.  On a good note, I have lost 5 lbs., in the 2.5 weeks, which is keeping me hanging in there.  That is huge in my eyes as that leaves me about 5-6 pounds left to go in 8 weeks.  So very do-able, and won't leave me stressed.  As draining as this "on season" can be, I do really love it.  I look back and I appreciate at age 38, what I can mentally push my body to do.  I LOVE seeing my body take shape, build muscle, get and stay healthy.  It amazes me what we ALL are capable of doing if we really commit.  We ALL have it in us to do what we really want to do, it's mind over matter, it's pulling out the will power we all have and using it.  Nothing comes easy, we have to work hard if we really want something.   I really want this, so I am working my butt off and to not forget doing so while being a working mom, wife.  It's a challenge itself to juggle this with our lives and not have this comp consume our lives.   I take my shows one show at a time.  As long as the passion lives in me, as long as I don't let it consume my whole life, as long as I have my hubby and family support, as long my body allows me, I will do a show.  Show by show.   Keep this in mind with anything you are thinking of pursuing in life....."Don't wish for it, WORK for it"  Happy Saturday to you all....