5 weeks out.....

5 weeks out, still seems a ways away.   Looking forward to that 4 week out marker to make it more in reach.  Last week was good, although I did hit two low days.  It was due to lack of sleep.....which is so important to be getting during time of prep.  I am still feeling pretty good over all, happy with where I am at.  I am weighing in this a.m. at 135.6.  Very happy. Hitting posing practice today, then cardio, sprints to be exact, YUK!   I tried on my suit last Tuesday and my trainer is very pleased with my legs, which has always been hard for me to work, get definition.  She is looking at getting me to 133, and seeing where I am there.  If I look to lean, then we will add more protein to my eating, which will just add more weight in muscle.  Being that I only have a little over 2 pounds to loose in 5 weeks, is a bit scary for me.  I am afraid that I will gain, or at last minute have to shed off weight.  So far loosing this time around has been by far easier for me, and that scares me.  I know how to loose, I know how to gain, but I am scared and don't know how to maintain exact weight.  It's a little overwhelming, but I am trying to not think about it and just go with with each day.  This kinda of training you have to take it day by day.  Still eating everything the same.  LOVING my rice cake and peanut butter part of my day, always wanting another when I am done;-)  Even though I have a lot going on in my life, I am doing my best to balance it all, be momma to my wonderful kids, wife to my supportive hubby, a great co-worker at my job, 100% with training and taking on a new life adventure.  I know my social life has been put on hold, but I know what I am doing for my future, for myself and family is worth it.  I have learned through all this and learned with taking on this new life adventure, that it's about priorities.  We are NEVER "too busy".  I hear everyone say how they are too busy, they don't have time for anything.  Well I am a believer that we are never to busy for what we really want, or want in our lives, it's all about priorities.  If it's a priority in our life, we make time for it.  I make my family, my work, my passion, my dreams/goals, my friends,all a priority in my life.   "Life is a balancing act".